I had cancer
I wonder if there will be a time when I don’t cry when I say I had cancer. It’s starting to get embarrassing. Several people have commented on how they either didn’t recognize me with my hair cut or were complementing me on how much they liked my new hair cut. Most of the time I’ve either just smiled or said thanks. But sometimes, I just can’t help myself. I have to correct them. Maybe it’s the lawyer in me, but I can’t stand when someone has the wrong impression. Oh, I didn’t cut my hair. I had cancer. Why do I do this to myself? I should just walk away but I don’t…I can’t. By the time I utter the word cancer I have tears rolling down my cheeks, which always gets me a warm hand on my shoulder and a pathetic sad face look. I’m so tired of the sad face look! Maybe I say it because it’s time to share this with the universe. It’s time to release these memories, like little crumbs that I can leave here and there. I do feel a little better with each of these public admissions. There’s no secret here anymore. I had cancer and I’m ready to shout it from the rooftops.
I accept myself unconditionally right now.
– Dr. Christiane Northrup
WOW, I am finally reading EVERYTHING, did not realize you had written so much. You really write from your heart, which is very sweet and I believe, very healing. I am amazed how well you have chronicled your journey. This could be a book! xxoo mom P.S. Quite an outfit I wore!
Yes! There will come a time when the emotions are not so raw. But it’s all so fresh and still very new right now. Do trust me that it gets easier. This first part is a bit tricky – there’s a bunch of anxiety that make the first year tough. But each month you will feel stronger – both physically and mentally – and finding ways to treat yourself well helps also. Give yourself a break every now and then. I really like your blog – thanks for sharing it with the universe. It helps – both you and the universe. You never know who will read it and feel less alone.
Thank you Mia!