Punchy Mommy Believes in Life

How I evicted the worst uninvited overnight guest and took back my life

Category: Primary Mediastinal B Cell Lymphoma

One year ago today

Confetti

One year ago today, my IV bags emptied, my fluids stopped, and the IV was taken out of my groin. I rolled out of the hospital bed and into the wheel chair. Little Man sat in my lap and DH wheeled me to the elevator. I was done. It my last day.

One year ago today, I didn’t think about making it to this day.

One year ago today, all of my thoughts were consumed by making it through the next five minutes, the next 30 minutes, the next day.

One year ago today, I spent all my time in bed and slept my days away.

One year ago today, I worried about my decision to forgo radiation, I wondered if the chemo worked, would my remission stay?

One year ago today, I didn’t think about my future. What was the point, would I ever reach this day?

I never thought that along the way I would pick up another day to celebrate, to look forward to, to mark my most significant achievement to date.

But today, today I can’t stop thinking about tomorrow and the next and the next and the next…

One year ago today was my last day of chemo.

I have been in remission for 365 days.

Here’s to the next 365 days…and many, many more!

Open Phones: Sharing and Over-Sharing About Illness

Brian Lehrer

Little Man had a rough night last night. Mommy, I coughed really hard and then there was water in my mouth. What I did? What was that called Mommy? Yep, he threw up last night so it was just the two of us today hanging around at home and staying warm from the bone chilling temps outside. Cabin fever was starting to creep up my neck by about mid-morning so I decided to head out to Trader Joe’s. I turned the car on and started to listen to the radio that came on simultaneously. And, I froze. Brian Lehrer, from The Brian Lehrer Show on WNYC was inviting guests who blog about their health or illness to call in and talk about their experience blogging. I immediately dialed the show. He’s talking to me!

Here’s the audio from today’s show and my short, short live comment near the 12:30 mark.

Photo courtesy of Karly Domb Sadof/WNYC

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